The laminated list

[kyyrandi]

So since sleep seems to once again to be eluding me (getting a prescription for sleeping pills is all well and good, but that means you have to go and fill it also..) I thought I'd amuse myself by thinking up memes.

But instead of doing the traditional "people you'd sleep with" list, I thought to try something a little bit different.

Because one question which my therapist has asked on multiple occasions, when we've talked about my body image, and the problems I have with it, and how all of those relate to my trans process, is "so ideally, what would your body look like", and I've always sort of given a somewhat of a non-answer.

Ultimately, the problem, is that the reality of what my body looks like, and the fantasy of what I want it to be are so very much apart, that even trying to imagine a reasonable middle ground, the place where I feel comfortable in my own skin, seems like asking for the impossible.

But well, what the hell, it's wont kill me to give it a go at least once.

So here be in no particular order the five people whose body I'd snatch for my self if given a change:


First off Dero Goi, the vocalist from the German band, OOMPH!





Added bonus: I'm assuming that the amazing singing voice comes with the body..

Next one: Robert Downey Jr.






Next up, we have Tom Hardy






After him; Jeremy Renner






Lastly; Jordan Staal





Yes, if given the choice out of all the hockey players in the world, I'd want to look like him. It's not like it's a bad choice..


In case the pics and the list doesn't make it quite obvious; I want to grow a beard, NOW! Runner ups include Kesler's abs, because let's be honest here, who wouldn't want them.

And now, I really need to at least try to sleep.